Wednesday, September 13, 2023

A Daughter's Unspoken Journey: A Father's Day Reflection !

Father's Day is a special time when the world comes together to celebrate the love and respect we have for our fathers. It's a day filled with love, joy, and heartfelt gestures, a day to say thank you for our dads always being there. But not all relationships between fathers and daughters or sons are the same. In this story, we will learn about the life of a daughter who had a different and challenging relationship with her father.

This daughter grew up in a small village, and her childhood was not like most kids. Her father, who is now 75+ years old, had two wives, and she was the child of the first wife. From a very young age, it was clear that her father didn't show much love to her. She remembers a childhood without the warmth and love that most children experience. Her mother, a strong and tough woman, had to take care of the family all by herself, including her and her older brother.

When she was just five years old, her life changed dramatically. Her father decided to leave her mother, and her mother had to take care of two young children with no job, money, or property. The young girl had to cook over a wood fire before going to school, while her mother struggled and used to cry every night when her babies fell asleep. Her mother's pain was immeasurable, but her love for her children kept her going.

Even though her father didn't support her, this daughter kept going. She worked hard, got a good education in a government school 3 kilometers away from home, and became an independent and educated woman. Her strength and resilience show how determined her mother was to give her a better life.

During her childhood, this daughter saw her father being mean to her mother. She and her siblings could only cry in fear because they were too young to protect their mother. This early experience with deceit only made her more determined to be self-reliant.

After a year of being apart, they all started living in the same house again, including her father's second wife. This happened because a sad thing occurred: their father's daughter from his second wife passed away, and the doctors said she couldn't have any more children. But even though they lived together, this daughter's relationship with her father remained difficult. When she was in 10th grade, her father's second wife became pregnant, which made her father more disliking and irritated with her and her family again. They shared a home but lived separate lives. Her mother still had to pay for her and her brother's education and other expenses.

As Father's Day comes every year, this daughter's feelings are a mix of thankfulness, sadness, and thinking about the past. She knows her father's role in her life was different, and she never felt the love and care that most people have for their fathers. She doesn't hate or disrespect him; her feelings are just complicated.

Even with her mixed feelings, this daughter continues to do her duty as a grown and independent woman. She helps her father financially, making sure he gets the medical care he needs in his old age. She pays his bills, sends money during festivals, and does her best to support him.

This daughter's story reminds us that not all family relationships are the same. It shows how strong a mother's love can be and how determined a daughter can be to overcome challenges. Even though her own journey was tough, it shows that people can find happiness and strength, even when things are complicated.

In the midst of her reflections, she couldn't help but recall the memories of her father's actions and words from the past. While he may have forgotten the pain he inflicted on his daughter, she has vividly retained every scene and every hurtful word.

As she thinks about her step-sister's loving message to their father, she remembers that family relationships can be complicated. Life can take them on different paths within the same family. She is thankful for the love and support she has in her nuclear family. This love continues to create new and wonderful chapters in their lives.

Tuesday, July 25, 2023

Best of the Both Worlds

In every way that matters, you're here for our babies,
I'm telling the truth you're their superhero, no "maybes.

You change their diapers and make them smile,
With silly faces, you play and go the extra mile.
Songs you sing, rocking them to sleep each night,
Midnight checks to ensure all is alright.

You feed them first, carry them everywhere,
Cooking, washing dishes, and cleaning with care.
You wipe their tears, and help with what's tough,
Working hard to provide, never thinking it's enough.

A partner in parenting, a loving husband true,
You're my romantic hero, my heart belongs to you.
Best of both worlds, father to our babies dear,
In life's journey together, you're always near.
 
You give me "me time," to laugh and be free,
With friends,  shopping, and chilling, just me.
You support my work and adventures afar,
Coming home to our kids, like a shining star.
 
Thankful to the gods, for bringing you my way,
You're the best thing that happened, every single day.
Words can't express my love, husband and dad,
More than anything in the world, you make me glad.

Monday, February 18, 2019

जन्मदिनको शुभकामना सानू !

पहिलो रुवाई, पहिलो मुस्कान अनि पहिलो हाँसो ।
तिमी आयौ सन्तानको रुपमा सपना भयो साचो । 

पहिलो बामे, पहिलो ताते पहिलो कदमको बर्ष,
बयान गर्ने शब्द छैन, आमा–बाबा हुनुको हर्ष ।

पहिलो चुपचुप, पहिलो सुरुप्प अनि पहिलो गाँस ।
तिम्रा चन्चल हरकतले ल्यायो परिवारमा सुवास ।

सानो मुटुको ढुकढुकी ति कोमल हातहरुको स्पर्श
स्वास्थय,सुख र खुसीहरुले तिमीलाई रोजुन सहर्ष ।

तिमीले चालेका पाईलाहरुले गन्तब्य सधैं भेटाउन्
तिम्रा शब्द कसैलाई नबिझोस बरु चोट मेटाउन् ।

तिम्रो मुस्कानले फुल फक्रियोस्, दुबो रमाओस्,

पाईलाहरुले सफलता, हत्केलाले खुसी समाओस् । 

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

तिमी गयौ सबथोक गयो















तिमी गयौ कसैलाई खबरै नगरी, जाँदाजाँदै चैनका प्रहर लग्यौ । 
आफ्नाहरूको माझमा, हाँस्ने खेल्ने रमाउने, सपना र रहर लग्यौ । 

बेहोसीमै मैले सोचे तिमीले केवल मेरो जीवन, उजाडेर हिड्यौ,
नजर घुमाएँ चाल पाएँ तिमीले मेरो गाउँ, र छिमेकी सहर लग्यौ । 
हाँस्ने खेल्ने रमाउने सपना र रहर लग्यौ ।

आफूलाई काबुमा राख्दै, लाला बाला सम्हालेपछि, गोठतिर लागेँ,
गोठको ठाउँमा गोठ थिएन, अनि लैनो गाई र दुधे बहर लग्यौ ।
हाँस्ने खेल्ने रमाउने सपना र रहर लग्यौ ।

दिउँसै अन्धकार, चारैतिर कोलाहल, मुख भिजाउन पानी खोजेँ,
पानीको भाँडा लग्यौ, धारा, लग्यौ, पँधेरा लग्यौ, अनि नहर लग्यौ । 
हाँस्ने खेल्ने रमाउने सपना र रहर लग्यौ ।

आएन काल घर लडेर चिता हुँदा पनि ज्यान बाँच्न सफल भयो,  ं
अब जिउने कसरी पहिरो गयो बाढी पस्यो गिट्टी कुट्ने बगर लग्यौ ।
हाँस्ने खेल्ने रमाउने सपना र रहर लग्यौ ।

घरबार सब माटो भएको बिजोग हेर्न नसकेर, आफैलाई मार्छु भनी,
एउटा सानो पोको खोजेँ, भेटिएन तिमीले त्यो मुसा मार्ने जहर लग्यौ ।
हाँस्ने खेल्ने रमाउने सपना र रहर लग्यौ । 

मलाई लाग्थ्यो यो जगतमा दैव बाहेक शक्तिशाली, अरू केही छैन, 
शक्ति आफ्नो देखाएर, जिन्दगीभर पालेको, मेरो गलत ठहर लग्यौ ।
हाँस्ने, खेल्ने रमाउने सपना र रहर लग्यौ ।

जाँउ कहाँ जाँउ, आश्रय माग्न कता धाँउ, शाहुमहाजनको पनि घर लग्यौ 
हेर्दाहेर्दै एक निमेषमा मेरो सानो सन्सारबाट, खुसीका सारा लहर लग्यौ । 
हाँस्ने खेल्ने रमाउने सपना र रहर लग्यौ ।

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

रातो


















म मृत्युसँग लडाई लडिरहँदा   
तिम्रो आँखामा त्रासहरु देखिरहेछु 
म मरेपछि तिमीले भोग्नुपर्ने जीवनप्रति
कहाली लाग्दा आभासहरु देखिरहेछु । 
त्यो त्रास प्यारो मान्छे गुमाउनुको, 
त्यो त्रास मुस्कुराउने सपना त्यागी 
पिडा मात्र समाउनुको 

तिम्रो जिन्दगीबाट म बिदा भई गएपछि, 
आर्यघाटमा म जलेर खरानी भएपछि, 
सबैका ध्यान अब केवल तिमीतिर खिचिनेछ, 
बिचरी, कठै, अवला नारी, कसरी रहली अब ? 
यस्तै यस्तै शब्दहरुले तिम्रो मुटु थिचिनेछ । 
कसरी रहली अब भनेर व्यथा बाँड्न खोाज्नेहरु नै  
तिम्रा पाइला पाइलामा ठेस बन्नेछन्, 
तिम्रो हरेक श्वासप्रश्वासको हिसाब खोज्दै, 
पिठ्युँबाट छुरा घोपी, आँखा सामु वेश बन्नेछन् । 

उता मेरो चिताले धुवाँ फालिरहँदा, 
छिमेकीले तिम्रो सिउँदो पखालिरहेका हुनेछन्  
उता म आगोमा परिणत हुँदै गर्दा
यता तिम्रा गरगहना फुकालीरहेका हुनेछन्,
तिम्रा निर्दोष हातहरुलाई ढुङ्गामाथि तेस्र्याएर 
सुँडौला नाडीमा गुन्जिरहेका काँचका चुरीहरू
निर्दयी बनी झ्याम्म–झ्याम्ती फुटाइनेछ । 
केही छ कि अझै निकाल्न, फुकाल्न बाँकी भनी 
पाउदेखि नियाल्नेछन् र तिम्रो गलाको डोरो चुडाईनेछ । 

तिमी अर्ध चेत लल्याक–लुलुक भईदिनेछौ
जसले जता डो¥यायो उतैतिर गइदिनेछौ, 
तिमी जस्तै–जस्तै देखिने ती कैयौँ महिलाहरू 
तिमीलाई पाउदेखि शीरसम्म लुछिरहनेछन्, 
रातो रहन हुन्न कतै भन्दै 
निधारको टिका पुछिरहनेछन् 

मलाई सम्झना छ अझै पनि, तिमीलाई लिन आउँदा 
तिम्रा सङ्गीहरूले तिमीलाई गुराँस झैँ रातै सजाएका थिए
आज म तिमीलाई छोडेर जाँदा तिम्रा देवरानीजेठानीहरुले  
तिमीबाट रातोलाई अलग्याई रहेछन्, 
घोटी–घोटी कोट्याई–कोट्याई तिम्रो शरीरका 
कुना काप्चाहरूबाट रातो निकालिरहेछन् । 

तिमी माथि गरिएका ती व्यवहारहरू 
मलाई किन किन निर्दोषलाई सजाय झैँ लागिरहेछ 
यस्तो सजाय मानौँ म तिमीद्धारा मारिएको हुँ 
र तिमी मेरो ज्यानमारा हौ,  

तिम्रा क्रियाकलापहरूमा अब सीमारेखा कोरिनेछन्, 
दिनदिनै गरिने कैयौँ गतिविधिहरू निषेधित बन्नेछन्, 
यदि मिल्थ्यो भने धर्म र परम्पराको आडमा
तिमीले फेर्न श्वासको हावा पनि खटाएर दिने थिए । 
यो नगर, त्यहाँ नजाउ, उसको सामु नपर 
यता नटेक्नु, त्यतातिर नछुनु अनि यी सब नलगाउनु

हो तिमीलाई अब लगाउन दिइने छैन रातो 
र राता जस्तै देखिने चहकिला रङ्गहरू 
तर मलाई तिमी रातोमा असाध्यै मन पर्छ
रातो नै त हो एक नारीको शक्ति र उमङ्गहरू 
तिमीबाट रातो खोसेर तिमीलाई शक्तिहीन बनाएको
अहँ मलाई पटक्कै चित्त बुझेको छैन, 
जिउँदो मान्छेको शरीरबाट निकालेर 
किन चढाउँछन् रातो एक लासमाथि ? 

रातो त तिम्रो हो, रातो जिउँदो मानिसको हो । 
नपत्याए आफ्नो छालालाई अलिकति चिमोटेर हेर्नु, 
त्यहाँबाट रातो निस्कनेछ, त्यसलाई रगत भनिन्छ, 
त्यो रातो तिम्रो हो, रातो जिउँदो मानिसको हो । 
त्यो निधार तिम्रो हो टिका तिम्रो हो, 
सोह्र श्रृंगार तिम्रो हो, गाजलको धर्का तिम्रो हो,
मखमली चोली र रातो सारी तिम्रो हो, 
चुल्ठोमाथि सजिने फुलका भारी तिम्रो हो । 

रातो नारीको शक्ति हो, रातो प्रेमको प्रतीक हो, 
रातो देवीको प्रसाद हो, रातो आत्मविश्वास हो ।  
यो आग्रह मेरो तिमीलाई या अन्तिम इच्छा मान
मेरो मृत्यु पछि पनि हुनु तिमी रातो, रातो तिम्रो हो, 

यो  धर्ती तिम्रो पनि, यो आकाश तिम्रो पनि, 
तर तिम्रो शरीर, तिम्रो जीवन मात्र तिम्रो हो, 
तिमी जिउँदो मानिस हौ, रातो जिउँदो मानिसको हो, 
त्यसैले म चाहन्छु तिमी रातोमा सजिनु, 
किन कि रातो मेरो होइन, रातो तिम्रो हो । 

रातो केवल तिम्रो हो । 

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

ओह~~ तिमी मस्तको बैमानी !

















केस केस्राबाट सुरु भएका स्पर्श
काउकुती लगाउँदै सर्दै–सर्दै गए ।
निधार, परेली, गाला र चिउँडो हुँदै,
सुस्तरी–सुस्तरी तलतिर झर्दै गए ।


वरिपरि कोही थिएनन् परपर सम्म । 
थियौ त केवल तिमी, अनि म,
तिम्रा मिठा स्पर्शहरूमा मधहोस्, 
यी आँखाहरू भइदिए झुम्म–झुम्म ।


तिम्रो उपस्थिति, तिम्रो प्रस्तुति,
दर्साऊँ कसरी, अनौठो अनुभूति ।
तिमी सर्दै गयौ, तिमी झर्दै गयौ ।
मेरा घाँटी, छाती, स्तन र नाभी हँुदै,
मलाई जिस्काउँदै, मलाई चिमोट्दै,
मेरो सम्पूर्ण वदनमा तिमी हाबी हुँदै ।


बन्द नयन मेरा, बन्द हुनै चाहिरहे ।
निरन्तर तिम्रो साथ शरीरभरि पाइरहेँ ।
पलभरमै तिमी, ममा चारै तिर फैलियौ ।
म मात्तिए, मैले दुनियाँलाई बिर्सिदिएँ ।
म तिम्रो नशाले, उम्लिएँ अनि बर्सिएँ ।


एकैक्षणमा तिमी रोक्कियौ, निथ्रियौ ।
तर मलाई निथ्रुक्कसँग भिजायौ ।
खैर, म यही नै चाहन्थे तिमीसित,
मलाई धीत मरुन्जेलले रिझायौ ।
बिस्तारै तिमी अलग्गियौ मबाट, 
मैले आँखा उघारेर हेरे यताउति ।
तिमी उघारिएर उज्यालो भएछौ, 
ममा अझै बाँकी थियो काउकुती ।


सरसरती सम्झिएँ पल तिमीसँगको,
लिएछु आनन्द मैले तिम्रो कुस्तै ।
मन हलुका, शरीर पनि हलुका, 
मुस्कुराएँ म, भिजेको वदन पुछ्दै ।
एकैक्षणमा तिमी अदृश्य भइगयौ ।
तर म अझै पनि, थिए पानी पानी ।


ओह~~~~ पानी, तिमी मस्तको बेइमानी ।
आह.~~~ पानी, तिमी मस्तको बेइमानी । 

Monday, June 6, 2016

मिठो अनुरोध !


















बादलझैं यि केशमा रमाउ तर हराएँ नभन । 
यात्रामा आउलान अनेक जंघार, डराएँ नभन।

मायाँ गर भन्यौ तिमीले, मायाँ गर्ने क्रममा 
रिस, घुर्की र आवेग पोखुँला, कराएँ नभन।

साथ तिम्रो म छोड्ने छैन, कुनै मोडमा पनि,
हात मेरा पनि थामिरहनु, लरखराएँ नभन ।

कहिले तिमी डोर्याउनु, कहिले म डोर्याउँला,
डोर्रिनुरडोर्याउनु त प्यार हो, चराएँ नभन ।

कहिले थकाई लाग्ला, कहिले बिरामी परुलाँ,
सहयोगी हात माग्दा काम , अराएँ नभन । 
यात्रामा आउलान अनेक जंघार, डराएँ नभन।

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